the year of change

A friend of mine asked me a little while ago whether I had started to implement any of the changes alluded to in my New Year's post. My answer to her was, "Yes and no." Elaborating a bit further I explained that when I wrote that entry I'd been thinking primarily of external changes, but had come to the realization that a better place to start might be internally. Mental shifts first, if you will. Now change, something I normally think of as difficult and scary, is, according to Dakota, not something to be afraid of (or at least, the fear shouldn't stop us), so I'm gonna take her word for it, but she'd better be right! :))

In truth though, I've realized for a while that I want to alter some of the patterns in my life, especially as they relate to interacting with others, and I suppose, myself. I'll be turning forty-five (gasp!) this year (yikes—some days I barely feel mature enough to be 25, let alone 45, and I certainly haven't achieved most of the milestones associated with that age), and believe it's high time I resolve certain issues so that I can start living the life I want. While not necessarily a mid-life crisis, I guess I feel I've reached a midpoint of sorts, and want to become unstuck. So, change it is!